i will never visit this site again, i dont deserve to. this should make you all happy. fman told me to not say everybody hates me, i understand that.. but who cares if nobody hates me, at the same time nobody likes me :( why am I here? every post I make i bet i only annoy the hell out of you all.. even tho im not even trying to. thats cause i am of such uninteligence i cant make constructive good posts.. im sorry.. i try.. but fail.... so I give up. its good to try, but sometimes you realize some things are just impossible no matter what, and people here liking me are one of those things. so i give up. i wanted to be cool with you guys it will never happen. you are all just too good, you all like totally win at everything in everyway and i fail at everything it feels like.
or maybe cause i was born w/o the abilitiy to talk in real life it also effects my ability on a message board or chatroom cause it was not meant to be.. i dunno.. i just know when i talk everyone thinks im stupid. so be it, if I am meant to live my whole life without any interaction whatsoever ill just have to get used to it :( as hard as it may be.. but maybe denying and fighting it is what the problem is and if i stay away from people i will be happy.. i dont know but i do know I used to do stuff by my self all the time back when i was 3-15 and i was always happy, so maybe ill try staying away from people.. even tho i want to interact with people cause they are interesting, but i cant cause they always laugh at me and show no interest in me... :/ even tho i am the nicest fairest and most trustable person you could possibly meet.. but nobody can tell that just by looking at me.
well, goodbye you guys. dont reply to this since i wont be able to see it, but i did have a good time until i screwed myself, this was the ONLY "place on earth" where i THINK a few people actually liked me, then I screwed myself and everybody thinks im weird now, and now i know nobodys gunna like me again so why keep living denial and thinking someday i can fix what i did, i cant, it cant happen so i might as well accept it that way
on second thought, i just realized nobody cares so all i did was waste time writing this.. oh well, atleast it should brighten your day knowing tsc's stupidest most useless and worst member is finally leaving you all alone... so atleast you guys are happy so thats a positive thing. even if im not .
well off to watch some more South Park, it is keeping me somewhat happy, since it is really funny :) if not for it I would have nothing to do other than sleep all day, when I sleep I can have all kinds of cool scenarios that are tons more fun than real life. but it really sucks when somebody wakes you up in the middle of a fun one... so many adventures ruined.
